AND GOD SHOWED UP IN A HUGE WAY TO ME AND AS USUAL, RIGHT ON TIME! READ LAST

Five, Christian or not, you can justify anything to yourself if you want to but you cannot fool God.  I knew I was taking too much and my old doctor just gave me as many as I wanted (8 10-mg pills per day at one point in time) but my new doctor has me on a tight leash.  I can take 2 pills per day and if I take more than that, I'll go into withdrawals and because of a mistake by the doctor, I thought I could take 3 and for the first time in a while I actually needed it so I ran out.  We end up overtaking but God heard me.  When I thought He had forsaken me, He was working in me.  I was stressing mentally but had little to no physical withdrawals.  This month is going to be the month where I break them in half by next week and still only take 2.  I'm going to view the halves as a whole and supplement it with OTC meds for pain control.  While I'm not completely free of addiction, I feel in my heart that I'm almost there.  Within 3 months it will only be "as needed."  Now for how God was not only listening to me but He had a small surprise for me...exactly to the T what I prayed for.  Here it is....

On my darkest nights when I couldn't pray, read my Bible or even watch a movie because of how miserable I was, I cried out.  I would tell Him I'm hanging by a thread, dear Jesus, I don't care how thin the string is but please, please hold on to me.  I cannot do this anymore.  Come to find out that when you're in withdrawal, things like your faith, sex and a few other things that it is NORMAL to have no desire for them.  I'm telling you that if satan's DNA is on anything, it's on drugs.  When you're weak, that thing attacks you and you truly feel powerless to stop it.  I'd read the Bible and get so frustrated I'd throw it down on the couch and read a Psalm because it was all I could handle.  I did good if I could read 7 verses a night.  My prayer life was in shambles.  The guilt, it was awful.  And then.....

God showed up!  Remember how I said I prayed and asked God to hold on to me by a string but just don't let me walk away from Him.  Even at my worst, I knew He wouldn't leave me.  I'm not one for a lot of jewelry as anything metal on me irritates me either physically or mentally.  I don't know why.  I never told anybody this, not even my husband until God showed up.  We didn't celebrate the holidays except for a few little things and way too much sweets but my sister always sends us gifts.  

There was a small and thin tin-like box with a message that said to open last.  I figured it was a gift card.  I opened it last and what I saw there blew my mind.  I was, for once, speechless for about 3 minutes.  All I could do was stare as I just didn't know the words to how I felt.  Nothing could have shocked me more even if it had been a check for a million dollars because in that box was a necklace that says the word "faith" in the shape of a cross on a very thin string.  That's when my FAITH exploded.  Miracle?  Maybe not to you but to me, it was proof and when that happens to you, if it hasn't yet for any newborn babies in Christ, wait for it.  God will amaze you in ways you can't even begin to imagine.  I'm going to go see if I can find a picture of the one I have...be right back!  This is extremely close but mine is silver, which I prefer over gold.  They look the same, other than that, although there could be some differences!